giddy up, giddy up, giddy up, let's go (SHOPPING)!

Hey Y'all! It's Lacey from Lacey in Love! I'm so happy to be posting here at Le Musings of Moi today! In fact, I'd like to go ahead and declare it "Le Musings of Lacey" for the next 24 hours... because I CAN. How ya' like them apples?

In all seriousness, I'm completely flattered to be here. Summer emailed me sometime last week and was all, "Lacey, I'd like to declare my love for you to the (blog)world by having you post on my blog one day next week." & I'm all, "Ohmyfreakinggoodness, really? Of course, lady! You're my number one, duh." And then we cyber hugged(ever notice how by putting the word 'cyber' in front of basically any verb, it seems dirty?)... it was touching. A tear jerker, if you will.
Sooooo here I am, people!

I've been trying to think of a really grand topic for a week now & decided nothing says "Summer" like a little shopping post, right? & Do you know the only thing better than a plain ol' shopping post? An ETSY shopping post, of course! Gotta support handmade, my lovies!

Since Fall is in full effect, I think now is a good time to start thinking about Christmas shopping. I know, I know... some of you like to wait until December. To you, I say... what in the world are you waiting for? Don't let it sneak up on you! Do you know what is more exciting than waking up at 4am on Black Friday, slapping on layers of cold weather gear, dealing with crowds and leaving the mall feeling like you just got slapped upside the head? Waking up at 9am on Black Friday, walking your happy butt to the couch and plopping down in front of the TV to watch It's a Wonderful Life and a bevy of other Christmas movies that TBS can't wait to air while gorging yourself on leftover pie.(Don't judge me...you know that sounds awesome!) & How will you be able to do that, you ask? START NOW, duh. Then after you wake up out of your pie coma, you can dig through your bag, closet, attic... what have you, of Christmas gifts and rejoice in the fact that you have very little left to buy! Know why else it's fab? You don't feel completely broke come Christmas!
Hark, the Herald Angels Sing, my friends!
Hop in the proverbial Station Wagon with me & LET'S SHOP!

HER

1. BooJiBoo It'll make 'em wanna cook. Sandwiches totally count for those non-cooks out there(ahem, Summer... I'm lookin' out for you lady!)
2. JStephens13 Super Sweet wristlet :) I love this wood grain pattern!
3. Chirp Studio Silhouettes are all over now & I think these are perfect for anyone! Neutral colors... can't go wrong!
4. My Lavaliere Love, Love, Love!

HIM

1. Tiny Tokens Designs Personalized Cuff links
2. Tina Knowlton How amazing is this little BBQ table?
It's got a price that's just as amazing, if you ask me!
3. Signature Shirts You know what I'm talkin' bout girls!
4. Flying Bird Botanicals A little shaving product to keep your favorite Mister smooth!

LITTLE LADIES

1. Bit of Whimsy Prims The sweetest little dollies for your favorite doll face :)
2. Lover Dovers Clothing The cutest little dress up outfits you've ever seen reside in this shop!
3. McClean2612 Felt Yummies for the perfect tea party!
4. Elsie Cake The coolest coloring book you'll ever find. You'll want to keep it for yourself!

LITTLE MEN

1. Toy Breaker Clip on tie! :) For the studs out there!
2. Happy Family All the cool kids are wearing robots these days.
3. Homemade Heroes Perfect for playtime! Tie it on and set them free!
4. Little Bit Funky Nap time, anyone? YES, PLEASE.

TEENS

1. Toy Breaker Skinny ties for cool boys
2. HerroHachi Personalized tees...oh. so. cute! I like this love hangover one, but she'll make you one to say whatever you want!
3. Rogue Empire IPhone pouch/wallet made with a tie!
4. Freckled Nest Photo booth Album for your photo strips!

CO-WORKERS

1. JStephens13 Perfect little pocket for whatev. Slip a Starbucks card in the co worker's that you actually like, haha ;)
2. PaperPaper Perfect Perfect. You can get a set of 6 of these postcards & frame them! Perfect for everyone's desks!
3. The Cozy Corset Cuff Cuteness can hug their coffee all day long!
4. Bliss Candies Nobody has to know you didn't make it... we won't tell.

There you have it, folks! Hope this gets you motivated to pick up a few things next time you're out shopping, or next time you're sitting on your bum in front of the computer bored ;) Loved hanging with you guys today! xoxo

WAIT! WAIT! Before I head out...
You want to know what my favorite Le Musings Post is?
Glad you asked... I've been dyin' to tell ya'!
It's THIS ONE
I love the way Summer loves. So inspiring :)

© 2009 "Le Musings of Lacey"
(Ha! See what I did there? Clever, I know.)

Thanks for letting me babysit, Summer! ♥ you, my friend!

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

laugh it up....

Many thanks to Summer for asking me to write...

Something here on her blog.

See...i'm a little shy & wasn't sure how to react.

But given the opportunity to speak on anothers...

I couldn't pass that up...RIGHT???!!

Not me of course...i'll try anything once...well...

Almost anything :)-

So with that said...HERE WE GO Y'ALL!!!

In relationships...friendships...everyday life...

We have conversations/attention getters to...

Strike a cord in another.

Well...my favorite thing to do is push buttons.

I mean really...life should be F.U.N.

To mess with another at times can be a HOOT!!!

I'll admit...i can be quite the prankster :)=

{Of course i know when it's NOT appropriate}

{Via Google}

So there you are in the elevator...all eyes...

Staring forward. Have you ever noticed that...

Everyone seems to face the front???

Well...have you ever gotten in and stood...

Looking right at them???

And if not you SHOULD definitely do this.

{Face to face...get your stare on}

I tell you...it's the funniest SH*T i've EVER seen.

You'll get people moving around...fiddling...

Not sure what to do.

They're out of their comfort zone y'all...

As if you've lit a match under their tooshy!!!

How about at work...to mess with another.

You take the roller-ball out of the mouse.

They go to move it around...only to get...

NO reaction...ZILCH....nadda!!!

That little cursor of theirs aint going nowhere :)

The time it takes for them to realize this is...

Priceless to say the least & can possibly take up...

To an hour or so.

They'll call the help desk...unplug/replug...

Slam it...shake it & almost break it in the process.

No one really thinks of the obvious...

Which is the ball...DUAH!!!

In life...we have these occurances and they...

Re-enstate that we should all bring a little...

Maybe ALOT of humor into our lives.

Not be sooo serious and go with the flow!!!

We don't want to walk around with sticks up our rear.

Enjoy each day and those close to you.

.....Laugh it up...LIVE IT UP...Soak it up.....

Well...looks like my funny time is over :(

Back to my blog i go...but before i give up the reins...

I wanted to leave you with my favorite post...

Of Summers to date.

....."What's Your Crazy?".....Go read it now.

It shares how we're ALL alike & have issues...

Like anyone else....we're all human.

Genius i tell ya...pure Einstein...PEACE OUT!!!

-Aubrey

Made You Blush

"To make mistakes is human; to stumble is

commonplace; to be able to laugh is maturity."

- William Arthur Ward

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

i am fairly certain guest posting is the best...

Do you guys even know that you are about to experience some amazing blogging on here this week?!? {As if you haven't already with little ol moi!}

Do you?!?

I am working on a few projects this week that need my full attention, and you know, a break is always nice....so I have asked some of my most favoritest friends to babysit my blog for the week. Seriously, they are freaking adorable and sweet and lovely and funny and amazing....and well, basically just like me but not me.

You will love them, you will laugh and smile and want to be BFF with them, but just remember that I'm yours as well, and if I lose you all, I will just...DIE. And not in the good Rachel Zoe kind of way.

Okay, so enough about me. Enjoy my girls this week, and I will see you all on Friday for my beloved Fashion Friday. Oh, and if you miss me....I'll be on Twitter. Muah!

hello friends old and new of le musings!!!

brooke {aka:oofa} here guest posting for the day...

if you don't know me...

well maybe ya.should...

as i run things over at oofa luffa le...

a little {crazy} place i like to call home...

i was shockedandawed when the gorgeous
and fashionally auhmazing ms.summer
asked me to keep her company this monday...

this folks is my very first guest post and since the pay
polite request was right i was quick to say um.YES!!!

but since so often this place is a bevy of fashion eye candy...

well i thought i would turn things upside down

here a bit on this funday.monday and give you a

glimpse of some absolute fashion foul.ups...

so i'd like to welcome y'all to...

things i am fairly certain should never be allowed...

{don't you just love a nice breeze}

i mean com'on lady...
fishnets with tennis shoes
is never.ever gonna fly...

{apparently "lane closed" doesn't apply to all}

just rolled out of bed hair?
maybe.sometimes...
just rolled out of bed attire?
um.nahsomuch!!!

{she puts my shredhead to shame}

i am definitely a fan of loving family photos...
however i am also a fan getting dressed for them...

{the backdrop just works}

you should probably know it's

all about the zebra this season...

{don't stop till you get enough}

taking the grey is the new black for fall '09

to a completely inappropriate and snug level...

{the bigger the hair.the happier the gal}

there is such a thing as too big...

and that statement is a far stretch...

especially coming from me...

well friends...

there you have it...

six fashion faux.no's

straight from the oofa's powerbook...

thank you logging these into your

fashion rule books and for hangin

with me over here today...

and a big ol'thankya to the

lovely le musings for allowing

me to bring my crazy all the

way over here for the day...

i've been lovin her fashion fridays

since ---> this absolutely fabulous

and totally covet worthy july day...

you rock summer.girl...

sososo happy to call you friend!!

*all images from the completely hilarious

peopleofwalmart.com

awkwardfamilyphotos.com

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

you twitter? i twitter.

If you aren't following me on twitter then you are really missing out. I mean, I don't really know how you get through your days without knowing the following:

just back from da pool....gotta love 90 degree weather at the end of September.

about 7 hours ago from web

Five more minutes in bed before I have to change my first poopie diaper of the ten I'll have today. All from one baby. Jealous?

about 14 hours ago from Echofon

so excited for next week! Thanks to my girlz for the hook ups!

about 22 hours ago from web

Back to blonde, and it feels oh so good. You know, I think I'm so much more smarter when I get more blonder. I think it's working for me.

about 22 hours ago from web

I could cuss. My DVR reset and I lost all my good Wednesday night TV. Cuss, cuss, cuss.

about 24 hours ago from web

piss on dis beein diss'd, shoo.

10:12 PM Sep 23rd from web

I'm out. I'm so out and I didn't even know it. Which means....I must be in somewhere else!

9:48 PM Sep 23rd from web

Oh for the love. Where for art thou sleep?

9:54 PM Sep 22nd from Echofon

Why does the cheesy acting on 90210 make me soooo happy? Can't help but love it!

7:48 PM Sep 22nd from Echofon

I'm in my happy place. My bed with my laptop and my tv. Chloe is asleep and the boys are gone. Loveliness.

7:15 PM Sep 22nd from web

Physique 57, you're my new BFF. {Until Brad takes your place. Braaaad, call me!} You took my 6 pounds away and they won't ever be back!!!

6:49 PM Sep 22nd from web

Rachel Zoe...I die every time I watch the show. It's like, on another level.

7:06 PM Sep 21st from web

In the words of Jewel, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way. Only, not.

6:31 PM Sep 21st from web

sitting in the dark eating yogurt, because my 10 year old lamps from Ikea finally stopped working. Isn't that so interesting to know?!?

6:04 PM Sep 21st from web

Feeling left out. Not my favorite place to be.

9:28 AM Sep 21st from Echofon

Workout down, next up interview soccer coaches for my boss' son, and then....Personal Shopping Business meeting!!! Oh ya. Sunday Funday

9:42 AM Sep 20th from web

Charlotte Russe has buy one pair get the second pair for ten dollars. So I HAD to buy two new pairs of boots. My life depended on it.

7:06 PM Sep 19th from web

So on Lady Gaga's song she isn't singing about Papa Roxy? It's actually about Paparazzi?!? Weird!!! Now it makes so much more sense!

6:17 PM Sep 19th from web

I can't believe I just yelled, "If you don't stop your whining I will pull this car over right now and give you a spanking!" I AM that mom.

1:55 PM Sep 18th from web

So, you see....if we aren't friends on Twitter, then how can you really know me? I would hate, just hate it if you weren't the first to know when I can't sleep. Or when I find a good sale. Or when I'm feeling blue. Or when I need to poop. Or when I need to poop and I can't. You know, the good stuff. The juicy stuff. Come on, everybody's doing it.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

fashion friday

Today was my beloved hair appointment, and I am totally in love with my new girl. We've now seen each other three times, so I think it's getting serious. I'm pretty sure I'm ready to commit.

Anyway, here's my before shot from the dressing room where I had to change into my smock.

And here's my after:

And two shots of the shoes and necklaces:

{So, obvy I had some issues with removing le lovely red eye...it just seemed to want to give me black eyes and all that. Not such a good look for me. I'd rather keep the red. Also, since some you seem to like smiles, I tried that as well. :) }

This has to be one of my all time favorite looks. I absolutely love jeans with tunics or dresses. I think it looks good on *almost* everyone. So cute and funky. Can't have cute without some funk or edge. Combo Perfection. Love.

Tunic: F21 (duh) $20

Jeans: Seven's $30 {Plato's Closet Resale}

Shoes: Mia $40 {Endless.com}

Bracelet: F21 $4

Ring: mark.com $8

Necklaces: Random mix, one of which is my "mom" necklace with my babies initials on one side and their birthdays on the other. Designed it with a shop on etsy, and I freaking love it.

Okay, so your turn, if you wanna.

Da Rules:

Make sure you are linking directly to a post related to fashion.

Make sure it's about fashion.

Did I mention it needs to be fashion related?

P.S. Thanks for all the great advice on potty training. Looks like I'll be making another costco trip for pull ups, and a phone call to the peed. Get it, peed? lol

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

fashion {thursday} post & night time potty training advice

Lucky ducks, you guys get two fashion posts in one week!!!

Jacket: Wet Seal, $10, bought years ago and have only worn once. Well, now twice. I think it's making a comeback in my wardrobe though, because I think I quite like it.

Top: Forever 21, $19. Soooo, I returned that plaid little number from a few FF's ago, and got this (and some other things, whoops!) instead. This just feels more like me and my style.

Pants: Huh, what a surprise....Forever 21. I swear, this store...it's taking over the world. I actually bought these pants 7 years ago and they are still in perfect condition. See? You don't have to spend a ton in order to get quality stuff. Ha!

Shoes: Zara, $4 {my thrift store} And yes, I Lysol'd the shizz out of these and put in yummy smelling inserts. I'm clean like that.

Ring: another mark.com purchase, lovin it.

Bracelet: Who knows. =)

Speaking of fashion....I have a potty training question, um, for my four and a half year old.

So, he's totally potty trained...except for at night. We've had him in pull ups, and every single morning they are always wet.

No matter what.

But, we are broke (what with all my fashion friday spending) and it's clothes before pull ups, so things had to change. It was time to say buh-bye to the pull ups.

Anyway, so it's been about a week, and I'm getting just a little sick of wet sheets. Repeat: I. Am. SICK. of. wet. freaking. sheets!

We limit the water intake at night, we take him potty before we go to bed, and yet still....wet. freaking. sheets.

I might also mention, he FREAKS the EFF out when we get him up. He's all shaking around as though he's stuck his wet finger in a socket and he screams and cries, and then proceeds to pee without aim all over the bathroom floor. And the following morning he remembers not a thing.

So that's been a whole lotta fun.

Um, not so much.

I need help. Seriously? He's almost five. It's time.

How are your children staying dry at night?!? And please tell me that his future wife won't be cursing me because I never taught my son how to 'hold it' at night. Because that would just be embarrassing. For her.

My fashion friday budget depends on your advice. You like Fashion Fridays right? Then you MUST help.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

vintage blogs: what's your favorite post?

You know, I just spent some time going back in my blog, and my word, there is some good stuff back there! Um, you know, if I do say so myself.

Anyway, it got me thinking that maybe I've missed some of your best stuff too. You know, that is, if you write a blog and all.

So today I'm opening up Mr Linky so that you can post your most favorite blog posts! Give us some good reading from the past.

Here's mine for today. Who knows maybe I'll do this again soon so we can get all caught up with da best.

Incomplete void

My brush with fame

Yes, I know I linked up to two, but with such fabulousness that is mine, it's hard to narrow things down. =) Enjoy my loves!

Now it's your turn. Share with us your favorite Vintage Blog!

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

what is wrong with tyra?

I'm a sucker for reality tv.

Admittedly even when Tyra is on it.

Okay, lets get serious. What is wrong with Tyra these days?

I'm getting a little worried.

Watching Americas Next Top Model nowadays is less about the models and more about waiting for this moment to happen to Tyra on national television:

And really, I'd be okay if I never heard her say Smize again. Smize, in case you missed the show or the 9 million times they talked about it on the show, is smiling with your eyes. Which, Tyra humbly announced she was somewhat the expert on.

And then she proceeded to smize and smize some more, and then as if we hadn't seen enough, she then made each and every model smize, and smize and smize some more.

It was all smize this, and smize that, and smize, smize, smize.

And at some point she came out dressed like a nerdy girl and then ripped off her clothes and turned into Smize Woman.

I kid you not.

It really did happen.

And if you feel tired of reading smize in this post, you have no idea what I was going through watching the show. No idea.

What baffles me, is how the modeling agencies continue to take her seriously enough to sign the winner of her show.

What baffles me even more is that I watch it.

Soooo....what does that say about me?

Oh shoot, it's been ten minutes since I practiced my smize. Gotta run.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

laughter is the best medicine

Sometimes all you need is a moment like this to see the brighter side of life:

I love my naked belly laughing babies. Love.

And because one is never enough:

See, now doesn't that brighten up your Monday?

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

weekend fashion post

Today I had the privilege of putting on a baby shower for one of my very bestest friends, Libby. I mean, besides being her BFF, her unborn son is also betrothed to Chloe, so it's only fitting that a future mother-in-law host the shower. Right?

So, the colors were green and blue, and taking a cue from another one of my girlfriends, I decided to color coordinate with the shower.

Dress:

I bought this dress almost 4 years ago, and I think I've only worn it once. I got it from The Closet for around $20 and then once I washed it, I realized in order to wear it again I'd have to iron the hem. And the thing is I have this insane allergy to the iron. I think it came from when I was a teenager and I used to iron peoples clothes around the neighborhood for extra spending money. I must have got burned out, because ironing I do no longer. Well, except for today. For the special occasion of Libby's shower, I took a chance on my life, and ironed away. I did start to feel a bit of hives, but whatever, it was worth it. I mean, it's cute, right?

Necklaces:

Two are vintage chains from my thrift store, and the one with the clear beads was made for me by my girlfriend, Sarah.

Purse:

This is the grey MJ knockoff that I got from fashionjunkee.com. Love it.

Boots:

Get this, these babies are from my thrift store. And they are way way vintage. So much so, that I am going to bring them in to the shoe repair place to have the heels and the inside redone. They can do that, right? Because the fabric on the inside needs to G-O.

I have to say that my last trip to MTS {my thrift store} was a complete success. I got two amazing pairs of pants, a vintage red sequin purse, a long black vintage cardigan (which is what I set out to find by going) and several dressy tank tops . One of which is from Black House White Market. So, once they're dry cleaned, I'll be sure to feature them on Fashion Friday.

I'm telling you thrifting is my greatest thrill. I once even got Taylor a 100% cashmere argyle sweater. So freaking adorable. Oh, and for only $1.

So, tomorrow I have a meeting about my personal shopping business!!! I can't wait till things are more finalized and I can share with you guys all the details. So fab, so fun!

Happy Weekending!

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

fashion feathery friday

Dress:

Can I just say, I am freaking in love with this dress? In love I tell you. In freaking love. It's like it was made to fit me. And I feel sassy when I wear it. {As if I'm not already.} So, I was on a Personal Shopping job {my new up and coming business, more on that later}, and I accidentally found this dress for me while I was shopping for her. There I was, in Forever 21, and on the sale rack, for $12 was the new love of my life!!! I think a few girls may have slipped on THE DROOL that followed behind me as I ran to the fitting room. And as I zipped her up, she (the dress) knew she had finally come home. I mean, seriously....it's cute, it's black, it's sassy and sweet, all at the same time. Kinda like me. Except the black part. {At least I'm not on the outside anyway.} ;-)

Denim Jacket:

I love pairing denim jackets with dressy outfits when I want to bring down the fancy factor. This jacket I've had for years, the tag says J&Co, and I'm assuming I bought it at either Ross or TJ {Maxx}. I can't even begin to remember how much it was for, but I'm guessing in the teens. I roll like that.

Boots:

So, it was between these boots and my triple strapped mary jane heels, but I felt like the boots just seemed right. The heels brought a bit of um, how shall we say, sexy?...and that wasn't so much the look I was going for. These babies, which you've seen plenty of before (I should mention I've had them 5 years!), are Anne Klein from TJ Maxx. I think, if I remember right, they were in the $30 range. I 'think' because I have a hard time spending more than $30 on a pair of shoes. Unless, of course, they are my baby Lou Lou's. {Louboutins}

Purse:

While I may fool you into thinking this purse is MJ {Marc Jacobs}, you would be just that....fooled. Oh no, this piece of yummy goodness is from one of my most favorite purse websites ever, Fashion Junkee. They have the most amazing purses that are identical to the real thing, and for waaaaay less of a price. And, they're great quality!!! I actually bought this exact purse in gray too, and then my two older sisters bought them too. Love. I get stopped all the time asking, #1 if it's MJ and #2 where I got it. And they still have more. Go. Just go.

Necklaces:

Actually all just one necklace from F21 {Forever 21}, $11

Ring:

Another find that I am dying over. I've slowly been working up my collection of chunky rings, and this one is at the top of my favorites list. I also bought it in leopard because, well, sometimes I feel sweet like a zebra but sometimes I feel fiesty like a leopard. Okay, so maybe that didn't make sense. But whatever, I love them. Oh, and did I mention I'm a mark rep, and you can actually buy these gems from my site?!? Amazing rings, mark.com, $9!

Bracelet:

Actually a thrifted chain necklace wrapped around a bunch.

So, wow, I guess talking about clothes and shopping sure brought me out of my writing slump! Funny how that works. Maybe I should take my sisters advice and try to stop being so deep and instead shallow it up a bit. Huh.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

taking a break

Didn't you know that this style is all the rage right now?

Okay not really. I just took out a braid and thought it looked hilarious.

That's all.

I'm just feeling like I need a break. I'm busy questioning things. My Ability To Write, Life, Blogging, People, What I'm Going To Do With My Life, you know....Deep Stuff.

So, excuse me while I put away my computer and snuggle with my man, and think. I'll be back tomorrow for Fashion Friday.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

paxil, lexapro, prozac...oh my!

{Triple Threat}

Oooh, got your attention there didn't I?

So, the older I get, the more I wonder when I'm in a room filled with people, how many of them are on antidepressants?!? I used to think I was the only one. Now, I'm sure that I'm not.

Shoot, I'm not the only one with issues. You know how I know this?

I know this, because I'm not the only with kids.

My first experience with the AD's was when I was a freshman in High School. As I've talked about a little bit before on my blog, I was a victim of rape in 9th grade at a party I should have never been at. And with all the pain and humiliation I went through during and afterwards, my dad brought me to a counselor (thank the LORD!) who suggested I might cope better with the help of Prozac.

I was broken and desperate, and I took that pill as though my life depended on it. 6 months later, I was out of my darkness, and I said goodbye to the big P.

Here's the great thing about me. Well one of the many great things...I have a predisposition to depression. It's on both sides, and I'm just one of the lucky daughters who gets to take it on.

Yes, God thinks I'm strong. And I'm not talking about these guns either...although....

{not even close to what's inside}

For the most part, I've been able to keep the depression at bay without meds, except for one other time in my adult life. While most may think the first year of marriage is all about a honeymoon stage, for me, I was F-R-E-A-K-I-N-G out. Freaking out leads to tears, which led to anxiety and pooping and well, eventually back to my happy pills. {I had an amazing husband, obviously, the issues were all about me. It's me, not you.}

Oh ya people, I really know how to party.

A year later, I chilled out, got my stuff together, and dropped 'em like it's hot.

But then I had a baby.

And then I had to deal with death while having a kid, who might I mention never stopped whining or crying or throwing himself on the floor when people looked at him.....all the freaking day long.

{Feeling the pain}

And then, let's really talk about anxiety, the awful, I can't eat, I need to poop, what is sleep?, no I don't want to talk on the phone or leave my house, kind of anxiety. And it sucked. Just slightly.

I called my doctor and begged for the pills. Please anything! Shoot, I would have swallowed sushi (I hate sushi) if he told me it would make me better.

He tried one, and after weeks of feeling completely STONED all the while still ANXIOUS, we finally decided that ummmm ya, maybe it just wasn't the match for me. As much as you would think being stoned could be fun, let me tell you, mixed with anxiety, not so much fun. Nope, not so much.

Was I unfixable?

But then I saw the healer. A new doctor with a new plan.

He spent time with me, reviewed my history, my families history, and really listened to me. And then he broke the news to me. I may very well be a lifer. But I was okay with that. Because my family needs me. And when I'm busy in the bathroom with anxiety poo (don't eeeeeven get me started on anxiety poo), I can't very well be a good mother.

It's now been about two years since I've really had any bad long lasting anxiety and even longer for depression. And the longer I go, the more confident I feel. I totally one hundred percent believe God can heal through medication.

I know that there are so many people out there who feel shame about having or needing to take these happy pills, and I just don't get it.

Life is short, I want to enjoy it. I want to be the best I can possibly be in this life.

So, while some may look down on me or think I'm weak, I know in my heart I am not. I am stronger than I ever believed. And I will do whatever I have to do, take whatever I have to take to be there for my husband and my kids. I am not ashamed.

{I will climb any mountain. For them.}

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

he said what?!?

Sometimes he says the funniest things:

Changing into his gi at Karate:

Me: Why don't you wear underwear?

Him: Hmmmm, I don't know. I guess I just haven't gotten around to it yet.

Going to stand in the corner after getting out of bed:

Jimmy: Go to the corner, there is no grace tonight.

Him: No! No! Daddy, I'm so tired, I must go back to bed.

Jimmy: Sorry, you got out of bed. Now you need to go to time out.

Him: But, I'm so tired, if you send me to the corner, then I'll just fall asleep there. You don't want me to fall asleep there! That's just not good! I'm not supposed to sleep in the corner!!!

And then sometimes, he just so stinkin sweet. {I think he gets it from his dad.}

On our way home from special time at Seaworld, talking about our favorite parts.

Me: My favorite part was when we were waiting for the Pets Rules show to start and you just leaned over and hugged me really tight. That was my favorite part.

Him: Mom, it's just that I was so happy. Thank you for taking me for some special time. I love you so much.

One morning when he was getting dressed. He found two pairs of shorts that was very similar to each other.

Him: Dad, I already have a pair of these shorts. So, can you take these and give them to another little boy who needs them?

But then he does things that are so....unexpected.

After swimming he went to the patio to put his shorts out to dry, when suddenly he came in and said in dramatic form:

Him: MOM, DAD! You have to come here quick. There is something outside that is NOT SUPPOSED to be there.

Me: Is it a bug?

Him: NO!

Jimmy: Is it a purse?

Him: NO!

Me: Is it a bird?

Him: NO!

Jimmy: Is it poop? {Guys always go there!}

Him: YES!!!

And then because I had just recently read this post:

Me: Is it YOUR poop?!?

Him: YES!

So, the story is after some serious questioning....he tooted and what do you know. Poop. We call it a shart in our house. Not sure how appropriate that may be, but whatever. We do the best we can. And no, we don't say shart in front of the children. We're not that inappropriate.

Oh the ups and downs and question marks of having boys.

I love that kid.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

what the heck is bsf?!?

The first day of the rest of my life wasn't when I met Jimmy.

Or when I had kids.

Or even when I started this blog.

The first day of the rest of my life was when I knew I had found my BSF.

Okay, so are you ready for what BSF means?

Best Sister Forever.

Sweet isn't it? Do you need a moment to grab a tissue? You might want to, because it gets even sweeter.

Besides our commonality of being witty and pretty and bright, we also have, as she already stated a mutual love for Etsy and dead dads. Or passed away fathers, as I like to say it. We had so much in common, that we felt more than a friendly bond. It felt....sisterly.

Aren't you glad you have that tissue now?

Hold on a second....I can barely see through the mist in my eyes....

At first it began innocent enough. We started simply by reading each others blogs. But quickly, we got bored, as it often happens in new relationships.

And so we mutually made the decision to move along to first base, emailing. And while that felt good and all, we needed more.

It was time for second base. IM'ing. And let me tell you, it. got. hot. We would spend hours, HOURS, searching through etsy and sharing our latest loves.

And as we grew safer and safer with each other through our love of etsy, we sped along to third base. Talking about the dads we lost. And we bonded over the hurt, the pain, and the life lessons we'd learned by experiencing such grief.

And then we knew.

It was time to bring it home. Home freaking base. We planned to meet. Face to face.

And while she wanted to spend all our face time making out with me (her words not mine), I thought it might be better if we kept it rated G, and instead offered to meet for dinner. With um, our families along. I just couldn't risk the chance of her taking away my innocence.

You can read all about that meeting here, you know, in case you didn't already see it on E! News.

So that, my dear friends, is the secret behind BSF. Now you know. You get to be in da club.

Now raise your tissues (as sopping wet as they may be) and lets cheers to sister friends. Best Sister Friends Forever. Ooooh, BSFF!

This one's for you Kat. *sniff sniff*

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"

fashion friday

Dress: Heritage, $22 {Forever 21}

I just have to say I spent way too long with this dress in the dressing room. I think I tried it on at least five times, and hmmmm'd and haaaaa'd over whether I was too old to wear it. And then I thought, forget it, I like it so too bad if I'm too old. Anyway, my kids are too young to be embarrassed of me yet.

Bon Jovi Tee: Heritage, $18 {Forever 21}

Shorts: American Eagle, $9 {Plato's Closet Resale}

You can't see these, but I was wearing them under the dress, because I'm a mom and a wife, and it was the right thing to do. The Duggars would be proud of my modesty. Or maybe not.

Knee Highs: $6, {TJ Maxx}

Boots: Mossimo, $30ish {Target}

Necklaces: Randoms from my thrift stores

Purse: mark, $32 {mark.com}

I'm sure you know this already, but how crazy is it that 8 years ago, was the 9/11?

It started out such an awful day for me, being that I was going through a heart wrenching break up, so when my roommates mom called all frantic and asking me how I was doing, I felt touched and began crying to her all about how much I hurt.

Little did I know that that day was not about me or the loss of a boyfriend, and she was definitely not asking about me and my little boy issues.

I spent the rest of the morning with a friend at breakfast while we just watched the news in a complete state of shock.

Everything changed for me that day. And a year later I went to Ground Zero to volunteer at a local church where they were ministering to the firefighters.

What we did to help, it didn't begin to touch what they did and were continuing to do.

Not a day should go by that they aren't being thanked or honored for going above and beyond.

So thank you, once again, thank you.

© 2009 "Le Musings of Moi"